There was nothing of value to look at
when you looked at her. Yet people seemed to adore her. There was
nothing to adore. She was a lunatic. A legitimate, down to the very
core of her being psychopath. She liked to hurt people, she had
probably killed people. If eyes are the gateway to the soul. These
wouldn’t just swallow you up. These would turn you into something
just like her if you stared for long enough. And there was no one to
stop her.
She was my big sister.
It's not funny, this is what she was,
and we had to live with her. I couldn't have any pets because they
went missing or seemed to commit suicide at about the same rate that
her boyfriends and husbands would later on in life.
No one ever believes me.
She's good at crying. Which is
something that you learn to
do, in order to get what you want from others as far as I'm
concerned. Because no matter how hard I tried. I could never cry like
her. Her cry was too perfect. Too much of what people want from a
girl crying, no character to it. Always freaked me out. Plus she
always managed to be able to convey that she knew that I knew. And
there was nothing I could do about. Or she would kill me.
It's
hard to love a psychopath. But I swear to God that I tried. I tried
to accept her for who she was, but they are robots, and I grew up
with a robot. A killer robot. Like the terminator.
And
then as it happens we glorify these people! Apparently they're
fascinating! That's why you keep on reading this isn't it? It's not
because of me? Who am I? I'm a victim? I don't think so. I'll show
you how much of a victim I am.
Well,
I was a victim. For a time, it's impossible not to be when you have
an older sister that has no soul. Not a trace of humanity other than
a shell exterior, that and no one believes you for the first thirty
years of your life.
Christmas
with psychopath. Easter? Hilarious. She always gave the most perfect
gifts for everyone at Christmas too, except when, well, when it came
to me. They were always a little off, a little disturbing. Too dark.
Too creepy. Like she was trying to pass me off like I liked all that
dark stuff. It was really her. But I let my family accept her image
of me.
It was
when she killed her first husband that I had to plan it. I had to
kill her. You know that I had to. Fire with fire.
The
problem with killing her, was that I'm sure she was prepared for me
to come after her one day. She knew that I was the only one that
knew, and she knew that I had tried to convince others to no avail.
That
didn't stop what had to happen though. So I set in motion a plan to
kill my own sister. Which sounds much worse unless I remind you
consistently that she's a psychopath.
She
was getting married again, and that's when I knew she would be most
vulnerable. She knew that too, but she had too many faces to show to
people. Too much energy and control needed to be put into simply
looking human.
She
still had it covered pretty nicely, she made it so that under no
circumstances would she be alone in a room with me. Always surrounded
by people. But there had to be a way to get the job done.
I
pretended to get drunk. Very drunk. I wasn't aloud to give a speech,
because everyone knew I openly hated my sister. So I pretended to get
drunk and while they were about to cut the cake. I grabbed the mike
and made a speech, and scene.
“Sister!
Sister! I loooove you! You. Hurp. Make me happy, when I know you are
happy. You're happy right sis? This guy is a good guy? Looks like he
loves you. I've bet you've told stories about me.”
I was hoping that
she would do the cry thing. But she felt like on her special day,
that it would be okay to treat me the way that she always wanted to.
“I'm going to
KILL YOU!” and she came at me. Not with a knife or anything, it was
just dramatic, probably going to use me as an excuse not to have sex
with her new husband.
It was all I
needed, I slipped the knife out of my pocket and she fell right on
it.
Have you ever seen
the life go out of a monster before? You can't see the change.
They pulled me off
of her. And I got away with it. Six months later I was acquitted,
drunken self-defence is still self-defence.
It's a good thing
that none of the cops that night did a breathalyser test on me. I
didn't have drop. To tell you the full truth. My plan was to just
walk up to her and try to hug while while she did her great cry game.
And stab her until she died.
The one time that
she let go. I won.
I am in a hospital
now though. Turns out I'm a bit of a sociopath. In fact, I might have
been completely wrong about my sister this entire time, and I am
simply severely disturbed. I might not have been honest
before, when I said I saw nothing in my sister. I'm here to tell you
right now. I see nothing in anyone.
I mean a psychopath
and sociopath? What are our parents like? Oh right, my sister wasn't
a psycho. Turns out.
I should have
known. I should have known.
Turns out that when
you look into somebodies eyes, and you see nothing there, and feel
nothing but hate for them. Well, that's more your problem.
I should have known
though.
All those years I
looked at myself in the mirror.
I saw my sister.
That was awesome!!!
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